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Little sheep, little sheep
There’s simply no avoiding it
You’re all destined for the slaughterhouse
Maybe one of you could dress in a crows feathers and fly away
But none of you are that smart, are you?
One of you says run and the rest will follow
Don’t you see that cliff in front of you?
The strong of you will meet the end in an orderly fashion
The weak of you will expire where you fall
But you will all, in one way or another be left for the crows
Now don’t you wish you’d taken those feathers?
Little sheep, little sheep - By me
Ok, so I’m a little bitter. But he likes his girls plain, predictable, without risk of embarrassment and quirk free. He likes them to be exactly like the rest and that is boring. He likes himself a city sheep that follows the orders of the rest. Of course I’m bitter, I’ll never be that way.
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The reason it’s so hard for to me to move on is because there were so many good things too. They just got trampled on regularly enough for it to all seem bad. But really, I don’t fall in love with just anybody. There are reasons why he was the only person I’ve ever pictured myself standing at an alter in a white dress with. I’ll write one of them down here and more as I feel the need to.
First time I met him off the train, he came to see me for 4 days. It wasn’t long enough. I went to meet him in my duffel coat, a tiny skirt and my wellies. It was supposed to be the skirt, a halter top and my favourite heels but it was raining so heavily that heels were just impractical. I waited at the station for about 20 minutes feeling surprisingly cold for June. The train pulled in to the station and off came hundreds of people, and there at the end he was walking towards me in a shirt and a jacket. His face dressed with a crooked smile and sparkling eyes. It was the first time I’d seen him in a few years and if my heart could have had it’s way it would have leapt out of my mouth and into his hands for safe keeping. I walked to him, getting faster as I got closer, he laughed at how cute I was in my wellies, and I’d planned on kissing him right away but I couldn’t. I threw my arms around him, buried my face into the collar of his jacket, the way he smelled was like a draw string on my body, pulling on my arms to make them tighter. I couldn’t let go of him. I felt at home with him around me and my heart suddenly seemed a little more at ease with us having connected. I guess that was the moment I was truly in trouble. I felt so at home and that never changed. His arms, his smell, his skin, his hands, his breath…. That is home to me. What a horrible realisation.
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If I can’t hold on to a scarf in the breeze, how can I expect to hold on to you?
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A shooting star can’t help you under Cassiopeia’s breathtaking, beautiful, selfish and narcissistic twinkling when you’ve already been stabbed in the back and left hanging. But it will lull you into a false sense of security.
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IF YOU COULD BE A FLY ON THE WALL
Whose wall would you choose?
I am selfish. I would choose the wall of the man who turned my life upside down for 6 months. I want to be there for a week or two. I want to know if he sits there staring at the bottom right of a Facebook page hoping my little chat box will pop up. Or if he’s got me there ready but minimized and is praying to a God he doesn’t believe in that it will turn blue and make that little half ping half boing noise that Facebook chat does when you have a new message. I want to know if he regrets how he’s treated me, if he misses, so that I know if he’s worth putting up a fight for.
What I would truly love, though, would be for him to be the fly on my wall. It doesn’t need to be for a week, or even a day. Just a few hours. He would know with just a few hours exactly how much I love him, how much I’m willing to give up, how much I’m worth and how he should do everything possible to keep hold of what would be the warmest love and most honest devotion he’d ever see, let alone experience.
Unfortunately for me neither are possible. So it’s just a ‘get over him’ situation. Ennit grand? I’m not worried, I’m a catch. I will find the kind of love I want to give at some point. But it doesn’t stop these life lessons from hurting.